the 100 qns about mi

100 qns...
[01] first name: Yanling
[02] middle name: -
[03] last name: Xu
[04] nickname:bLuE`sTaR
[05] gender: female
[06] age: 19
[07] birthdate: 11th Sept 1985
[08] height: 152cm
[09] hair color: brown wif a bit of highlight...
[10] eye color: black
[11] race: chinese
[12] do you wear glasses or contacts: contacts
[13] do you have nice hair: not really..
[14] is your hair long or short: shoulder length
[15] where were you born: toa payoh hospital
[16] current location: i love singapore
[17] zodiac sign : virgo
[18] how many languages do u know: chinese, english, cantonese(abit)
[19] nationality: singaporean
[20] bad habits: eat too much chocolate(haha)....need mama to wake mi up...
[21] piercings you have: 5
[22] piercings you want: don need le ba..enuff liao.
[23] tattoos you have: no!!
[24] tattoos you want: no!!
[25] today's date: 28/9/04
[26] the time: 08.34am
[27] ready for more questions?: k

SCHOOL LIFE
[43] are you still in school: yea
[44] did you drop out: don intend to
[45] current GPA, or last GPA: eh???
[46] favorite grade: sec.2
[47] least favorite grade: sec1.
[48] favorite teachers/lecturers: hmm? Miss Ng
[49] least favorite teacher/lecturer: haha..don say betta
[50] favorite subjects: geography, biology
[51] least favorite subject: maths
[52] do you buy lunch or bring it: buy of coz
[53] play any sports on the school's team: no
[54] do you do any extra curricular activities: in the past
[55] are you popular: no la
[56] favourite dance: ha..i don dance.
[57] least favorite dance: told u liao..i don dance.
[58] favorite memory: all my birthdays
[59] least favorite memory: eh...how bout my a-maths o'level exam?
[60] most humiliating moment: don haf la actually..
[61] number: 5
[62] clothing brand: no brand also nice mah.
[63] shoes: converse
[64] saying(s): haha..jiayou la.
[65] favourite TV show: xiao hua xiao cao
[66] sport: swimming
[67] vegetables: cabbage, carrots
[68] fruit: apple
[69] movie: too many liao.
[70] magazine: seventeen
[71] actor: andy lau
[72] actress: aiya..too many le lar.
[73] candy:eh..forget the name lar
[74] gum: don realli eat gum
[75] scent: flower scent..hahaha
[76] choc bar: ritter sports..the one wif cornflakes
[77] ice cream flavour: chocolate
[78] color : blue
[79] seasons: autumn
[80] holidays: valentine's day(but no meaning lar)
[81] bands: F.I.R, Zayin
[82] singer: Jay Chou
[83] group: S.H.E
[84] rappers: ...
[85] types of music: mandrin pop
[86] things in your room: pillow
[88] radio station: y.e.s933
[89] tv channel: channel 8
[90] junk food: choco, potato chips
[91] overall food:eh???
[92] store:ntuc..wahaha.
[94] fast food: long john
[95]restaurant: haggen diaz
[96] shape: star
[97] song: keep changing
[98] person u hate most: none
[99]musical instrument: violin, piano
[100]what u wana say: -_-

forget and forgive...

today went to watch jackie chan new film...not bad la...but duno y after c e whole movie..i missed the old Jackie even more..haha...strange right..went home liao..feel abit sad ..dunno y..e past memories started haunting mi again..all e memories came rushing back...being forced to look at them again..i tot i already went back to my normal lifestyle and my cheerful self..some things u juz can't forget dat easily ya know and its getting so hard to put it right again....so i m trying to take it more relax..but i juz don feel right..its juz a part of mi is lost or gone or simply has died..jiu suan how peaceful my life is now...i don feel happy....i juz realised i haven been happy all this while...maybe i still need time..but who can tell mi..how much time i need...to overcome all...and how far xinfu is from mi..

Promises

What are feelings? Something dat u realli experience in ur body? or juz some lies sewn into words that will fade in time....this world is forever changing..even ur loved ones are changing too..sometimes thinking back dunno wat touching words they say will always stand true...so i learnt not to trust anybody...coz i m tired of broken promises...promises dat are so beautiful but will not come true again...Even myself make promises dat i will break...If anybody has been hurt by mi..i juz haf to say sorrie here..now my life has returned to a peaceful state again...the storm has died down...i m glad for it ba...i haf become more stronger in a weaker way...struggle to protect myself...but i think i failed. my enemy is pride.

*riiiinng...wei!!
"recess liao, go eat la...!!"
.........drag my fren along...went to the canteen...bought some nuggets from the chinese stall...3 for $1....ate super quick...
"chi kuai kuai den we go book shop zou zou leh..."
"hey ze ge hen mei leh...i buy hor, u wan anot?"
"ok la"
*riiinng...
"aiya bell ring liao...kuai dian..."
ran back to classroom...
"take maths book out...u finish le??"
........

suddenly tis pri sch memory floated into my mind....probably it was pri 4 ba...haha...juz wanted to write down here...so i wont forget it again...so i wont miss it again...

=p

hehe...my blog's new look...=p

half of ipp...

Today is a start of a new week...week no.6 of ipp..e marking dat indicates i have passed half of my attachment which i m v glad for it...coz i m tired out already...the weekend passed veri quickly..wat wif my comp breaking down and all those...worried and spend so much money on it...haiz...hai mi cannot buy some of the stuff i wan...sian de....but it also taught mi a lesson...how i shld spend my money...my priorities seem to haf gone wrong too...i tink for mi now juz save as much as possible ba..maybe don buy too much things liao...but tink i still need new clothes and everything...maybe my headphones too..coz music IS veri important to mi...ok liao....hope tis week goes well for mi....

...

today is a lousy day...dunno y i feeling upset now ba.....hmm...maybe can't pinpoint y i upset lor..maybe juz don wan to say it out here..sorry pple...but don feel like saying anytink here...music helps alot....actually calm mi down alot.....oh and wilber music is realli great..i realli like his slow songs......:) maybe nobody noe e pain i feel inside ba...its so alive....after writing down here..i feel kind of relieved ba..tis e place i dump e all my burdens here ba...all my stress gone half le...blog ah blog..thankz for listening again...hee..

wilber album..

whew...finally finish my work le...don believe actually i now have some resting time for my eyes....haha...recently listening to wilber cd...i tink his songs style nv change much...but e way he sing is more confident le...some songs i like better...

E.g. 1) his first hit...Wu Ha..not super nice...but veri catchy....
2) track06...tis song got wilber singing cantonese for e chorus part...tink e way he sing abit
wierd..but there is story in dat song..so quite like it...and leave a deep impression after
hearing it.
3) slow songs isn't wilber forte...but i like some of them....yuan xin and tai xiang ai ni.... i like
them both veri much...veri comfortable wif his singing style...^^*

evil smile............

hoho...so bored now...dat oic din give mi anytin to do...but juz now when i gave her to sign my log book...she gave mi an evil smile when she noe i din haf anytink to do le..die liao...dunno if is e beginning of a veri hard time...tink i tink too much le...oh..and e air con is super cold here....start sneezing all over again..tink i realli allergic not onli to seafood, fur and dust...cold also...
now so sian le...waiting to go home sia...Argh...hungry again also...already can smell my dinner from here...wahaha...

hmm...consider buying a new keyboard and wilber cd..am i too wasting money?? ala....juz got my pay already...spending like water le...haiz.......but dat wilber cd sounds tempting...and dat keyboard will take ages to clean sia... :(

countdown to end of ipp....gentle reminder...39 more working days to go...after today 6.30 this is... =p

P.S. : Does all tis spacing in my entry makes it easier to read?? ha.....don wan to make u all go
blind sia...

Birthday WeekEnd...

Another monday again...arrrghhh..hate e feeling of being in an office...maybe it realli doesnt suit mi ba..anyway last weekend was a special one.....hmmm....coz sat was my birthday despite ah e 911 attack..blah blah blah...haha..went out wif my gd frens ...long time nv c they all woh...so happy...lazy afternoon....got a bag as present..which i like veri much..coz veri sunshine...and i bought a cap for myself..haha...now i start like wearing caps liao..maybe can cover my ugly face?? wahaha...hmmm...den sat nite watch the Channel U chuan ming ou xiang...wahhaa..veri happy e guy huang ding rong won....coz he super shy and cute woh!!! ^^* ya lor..and i definately agree wif e papers he won coz he had a special charm and que xian mei sia....so shuai....tink i may juz go gaga over him...haha...n he veri qian xu also....hope Channel U give him alot of opportunites sia....jiayou leh....hmm...sunday went out wif my poly mates....they treat mi swensen ice-cream and movie.....e earthquake..but i do wish i can eat my haagen diaz..sob sob....oh n e movie i tink it was a mistake lor....shldn't have chose it...it was a korean horror flick The Ghost...don realli like it leh.....coz veri typical ghost story...i tink i scared bcoz e aircon was veri cold..and e stupid sound effect keep bong bong bong....n i don realli like ghost movies ba..abit sick of them..i rather watch comedies and romances...hmm...e latest Jackie Chan movie looks nice...maybe i will go watch..anyway thanks u guys for a great weekend....hee hee ^^*

hahahah...so veri happy today..i m finally 19 le woh..kekeke..lookin back tis year..muz say its one wif lots of ups and downs..abit tiring..but i tink i learned alot during this year..today going out wif sec sch frens..hope i have lotsa fun...wahahhahaa....n i will grow prettier also..lalalla.....pple reading tis don collapse wor~~~...till then..take care~~~i be back.......^^*

stubborn me??

wa........eat finish lunch le came back to office feel so gd..dunno y sia..maybe even feel happy? so strange......hmmm......so qi guai woh..but now feel v sian aso..waiting for 5.30 to cum...haiz...slack ah slack...suddenly found myself to be a veri stubborn gal....i din realise it until these few years sia..tink my stubborness hurt alot of pple ba..haiz....in primary sch used to be a veri guai n zibi gal one..had veri little frens..........yet my results wasn't e best of the best..can say it was quite poor ba..all e gals in my class were prettier den mi..i was juz a dark small-sized gal.....wahaha...tink e ugliest maybe ba....but back then maybe i already starting to some of my stubborness.....would remain e quietest in my classs..and onli mingle wif pple i like..scarly some pple tink i zibi one..mi change alot ba...maybe to e friendly mi now.....but one thing wont change is my stubborness.hahaha...do wat now leh..so bored sia.....yawnZZ........

another sleepless night...@_@

haiz..ys din slp properly again ba...so today i look like @_@...so sian de..i noe i fell asleep after listening to a sentimental song by jerry yan on my discman..dat song is <>..realli veri nice...maybe cried abit also ba...den mother came in..no choice gotta slp..don wan her to c mi crying in e dark ba..don wan to disturb my mei mei slping also...haiz...but surprisingly i fell asleep veri fast...but i tink b4 5 am i woke up le...you shi mian le...dunno y auto wake up these few nights...and its getting earlier and earlier..maybe if tis go on i will beng kui ba coz today eyes realli veri swollen le...now is 8.40 am in e morning...still early so decide to blog an entry again...in e office everything is quiet...not many pple ard...i tink i realli cannot take it le..realli feel like slping...may blog later again...till then..

sleepless nights..

today wake up go work again..but i m so dead tired...din slp well last nite...eyes so itchy n swollen..but still force myself to wear contact lenses..coz i ai mei..ha...maybe juz not used to other pple seeing mi wear glasses...zi jun xin veri strong one...getting so sleepy now..maybe now still nothing to do ba...ys nite force myself to make a decision..coz i noe cannot delay....for e three of us...at least i tink my decision i will not regret either...n it sounds sensible too ba...ok le..stop for now..tink one of e staff coming in liao...bai for now..

life is like a song...

today is a day for thoughts..tink life is like a song..even its a sad song, i will still haf to sing to the very end and touch everybody ard mi...i noe i will stay haf to get on wif life..y not live happily? i made my decision...xi wang dui de qi everybody ba...including myself..maybe its not e perfect solution for everyone...hope time will blow over everytink....

Cinderella??

ys watch the movie A Cinderella Story...datz movie's storyline tink maybe every gal's dream i tink..ha...movie tells us to go for our dream..but how many gals will dare to realli go for their dream?? Admire how hillary duff in the show displays her independent character and her strong spirit in life...may even start to actually change some of my views on life..........haha.....haiz..but now abit sick..so veri xinku..can't realli concentrate on my work...cold day..brrr....

tired~~~:(

woh.......friday le...but i m feeling like an old lady now..so so so so tired..mi juz wan to slp for the whole weekend..no no..sunday wanna go swimming..can't be tis tired...haiz..today is half a busy day..y do i say dat?? bcoz i been non-stopping looking at the comp in my office for 7 hours...lian lunch also skip liao..after dat slack like hell.......so sian..now..brain keep tellin mi to go rest le...now everyday also tink of him ba..worried abt him also...haiz..hope's he alright..i guess right now i shld act according t his best interests ba..especially he found his own xin fu le..i can't be so selfish also............

hoho..nice song..

haha..i found dat i realli like e new mandrin pop group, ZAYIN...they r realli cool...n their music's not so violent..although they r a band..at least their 1st hit, <> super nice..its soothing..juz imagine myself sit beside by a lake and under the blue blue sky watching clouds move wif my loved one..wa seh..realli so nice sia..wonder when can c him woh..separated apart..so sad..but nvm...i will jian chi xia qu de~~~heehee...^^*