sometimes...when i look out e sky..and i see the grey clouds hovering....i smell the smell of rain...i would become sad...i guess rain brings mi sadness ya..haha...i also wonder why...maybe bcoz when its raining..every thing becomes so cold...if i ask u all pple out there reading my blog..wat would u do when u r sad...what would u do to forget ur sadness? i guess no matter wat i choose to do..e pain will always be there ba...now i juz wan to escape reality...hide in my little wonderful world...where there is onli laughter and joy...Love brings mi too much pain and sadness...it turned my world into a complete dark hell..everyday is juz passing wifout mi noeing it..i tink i m juz wasting everyday.....there is still a small part of mi reaching out for hope...its the part pple c mi as...as a realli hard working gal trying her best at her attachment right now? i guess e onli way to stop myself from thinking is to keep working ba...and i can't bear to hurt those close to mi..so i rather not tok abt it..i rather laugh it off...lucky i still haf a blog here to confide in..there is a fear in mi...dat i dunno y...a mental fear of being hurt again ba...but as long as i still can maintain my cheerfulness in front of pple...wat the heck?? juz go on wif it...and dats bcoz i noe some of u guys still care and love mi...so i don wish to leave u all too....